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Just out of curiousity, have you been Dxed w/ having a Major Depressive Disorder? Those are like mine...it's a chemical imbalance in the brain that, regardless of anti-depressant therapy (which you must continue to take) you get hit w/ episodes that seem to hit you out of the clear blue sky!
It's like having an anchor tied to your leg & regardless of what you do, you keep sinking (Ever see the movie,"The Abyss"? Like sinking to the bottom....but no ET's to befriend you)

Talk to your PsyDoc! Ask him about different mdications or adjustments.......Man, I can relate to that feeling so well, Sky I am sorry that you are hurting so, I guess all I can say is "HANG ON!" We are all here for you!
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