I have never been in a long term relationship. I am trying to get over the guy I was with which seems impossible. I think about him constantly to the point that I cannot function. I've gone months curled up in a ball not going to school or work because I couldn't motivate myself to get out of bed.
I don't have any friends all I do is cry and scream all day. I have entertained ending it cause the pain is ridiculous. I feel like such a loser that I can't get over him. I used to be stronger than this. I know I can do better and there is someone out there more deserving of my time but the mere idea of having another guy touch me or kiss me repulses me. How do I get over this and finally move on?
I feel so weak right now that I know if he called me to get back together I would. Five minutes before I started writing this I started to write him an email the only thing that stopped me was slapping myself until I could think more clear. I have no idea what to do and need some serious help