I'm glad you have shared with us and so sorry that you have this burden. I raised my two daughters alone, too, left my abusive husband when 7 months pregnant with the youngest. There is no denying that this is a very hard situation. My heart aches for you ... But this may be a time to deal with the practical stuff first. Can you get Assistance, Social Services , whatever they call it where you live? Do you need to go to a shelter to protect you and your children from harm. Who is in your life to help you take care of some of this? I don't want to overwhelm you, but hope you can take some steps to ease the stress. Please, keep posting, people will respond and support you. Have courage. I will be thinking of you.