Connor did come over in the end... So I had to eat something... I tried refusing but he just said; "I don't want you to turn into one of those girls, Kirsten... That refuses food whenever it's offered. Please just eat something for me... Even if it's something small." So I said ok and that I'd eat an apple today. I was ok with that. I didn't mind that so much, but then he kept seeing all these offers in the supermarket and picking stuff up and eventually got to crisps that were on offer and said "I might get those" and I said to him to go on if he wanted to and he replied with "They'd be for you, you know." GRRRR I didn't want him to keep trying to force me to eat!!!!!

I did have food in the end, didn't have the apple but had lots of water, about a litre so far and Connor got me to eat a chicken burger in a wholemeal roll. I didn't mind cooking it, but eating it made me feel so sick. Half an hour later or so, I went to the bathroom and was so close to spilling my guts up, but but my head in my jumper and sucked in my breath and managed to keep it down - somehow - I guess it's because I used to purge and stuff so my gag reflexes are a bit like 'noooo you're not throwing up your food anymore missy'. Hm.

My day did get better because I spent a good solid 40 minutes in the gym, working out with no breaks between each set of exercises that I did. My abs hurt, my legs hurt, my arms hurt and m back hurts, but.. For me that's a good thing. No matter how much they hurt, I like it. It means I've burned off at least what I ate today. I went to Dom, the tougher fitness instructor because I knew that he wouldn't let me stop until i was almost crying in pain and stuff, and asked him to write up a fitness regime with me. It's a tough one, and yes, the day after my whole body aches like a killer, but I don't care. To me, that's a majorly good thing. I guarantee that tomorrow I'll still go to the combat session with Dom (basically boxing)

I'll get up at 8.30, get ready to be at breakfast club to set up at 9, finish at 10 in time for the combat session. I can't wait. I need to punish myself somehow for eating so much today. So.. yeah. I did eat today.

Thank you for sitting with me. I've really needed it today even if Connor was here, I've felt so ill and been so close to throwing up so many times and I still don't feel great now, but I feel better after a session in the gym.