I used to drop acid with this other burned out helicopter mechanic in Viet Nam many, many years ago.

We would get really stoned and he would take out this black marker and he would write “The kingdom of God is within you” all over helicopter gunships. He wrote that simple spiritual statement on machine gun ammo boxes, on the insides of radio access panels, on rocket launchers, cannons, everywhere.
I thought that tagging those death dealing machines with “The kingdom of God is within you” was the funniest thing.

Years later I found myself trying to not drink for one day at a time, and somebody told me that God could relieve me of that obsession. I wasn’t at all sure that was so, but I remembered what my most spiritual friend had penned many years earlier.

Then I read in the Big Book, way in the back, the “Spiritual Experience” and it says, “we have tapped an unsuspected inner resource”. And it clicked.
Maybe my old stoner buddy and the guys that wrote the Big Book are talking about the same thing.
Just like that sorry little voice telling you it won’t last is am undesirable inner resource, the Kingdom of God may be that unsuspected inner resource that is the counterstroke to that insanity.
Just a thought

Richard S.