((((( Brian ))))))

I remember you talking about your former therapist before and in my opinion your feelings for her were pretty 'normal.' You felt love and connection with her which could have been mistaken for 'sex.' But you didn't try and jump on her did you? Most therapists know how to handle this transference, encourage talking about it but your T didn't know how to handle it. Please don't blame yourself for this. Continue to discuss it with your current therapist, work through it and you'll find a good connection with this one too.