Does anyone else hate sleeping? I really don't understand the symptom of 'sleep problems' in regard to depression. I don't feel i've ever suffered with sleep issues, but i don't think that is because i sleep well, more that i don't mind not sleeping. In fact, i would probably go so far as to say i enjoy not sleeping! My reasoning is that there are only so many hours in a day so the evenings are a relief for me and i want them to extend for forever. Why would i want to sleep because it will just bring the next day around quicker?! Sure, sometimes i want the oblivion of sleep but i rarely wish i was truly asleep because i know it cannot last (i know i'll always have to wake up again), and therefore i don't feel i get any benefit from sleeping. To be honest, i usually sleep simply because my clock tells me it is late and i must, not because i want to. That or i have a few glasses of wine and can't stop myself from dropping off (that really annoys me!). I know there are different reasons for my not sleeping, one is that my mind won't stop racing and on those nights it is pretty horrid because being in my bedroom can make me feel so trapped, but on the nights when i have pushed myself through a whole day of life and i'm not in the mood to sleep i enjoy just sitting at my window listening to silence. So i don't honestly understand how having sleep difficulties is a symptom of depression. I almost always feel tired, but that doesn't make me want to sleep, because sleeping doesn't irradicate the tiredness, it just intensifies it because it makes daily life come too quickly. Anyone agree?
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