hi abby,

I don't hate sleeping -- for the most part, I LOVE to sleep -- but I do find it to be a waste of time. This is because my depression makes it impossible for me to do much else, and I can waste up to three days in bed, sleeping on and off ... I find it very frustrating. You can't live your life if you're constantly asleep! Sometimes I'm like you, where I'll deliberately stay awake, because the evenings are my most peaceful times too and I don't want to have to face the next day. I'm doing it now, actually -- I haven't slept much lately because of school work, and I'm exhausted, but I'm hanging out on PC trying to quiet down my depression and be peaceful and just listen to some favourite music (and wait for the party down the hall to end because it's loud!). Peace is peace -- you can get it from sleep, but I prefer the kind that I'm conscious for.