It's all okay ...whatever you text. Hey I've got an alter who loves words so much she plays with them, just rolls them around on her tongue over and over just loving the sound they make. Her name is Cynthia. she used to pop words into my head in the middle of the night - Machu Pich was a favourite. But I am also often very precise in my writing (not so much here, but I write books, as yet unpublished ... sigh) and love finding just the right word for what i want to express. Sometimes I'll write a word that feels just right, but then ask myselfd if i really know what it means . I look it up and it's exactly what i wanted to convey. A lot of times I don't even know that i k ow the word. "Fixity" - that's awesome, like it lots. Thanks for sharing that.
Yeah, I finally figured out es. Maybe that's one reason I freaked out when my doctor kept bringing up electroconvulsive therapy for my treatment resistant depression. And what you say about alters being difuse, yes, I get that. It's all hard. There are about 150 of us and new names pop up every now and then even after 12 years of therapy. The number isn't important. I only offer that up to say that I can't even keep track of who has come forward much less know their stories. I do the best I can each day and that's all any of us can do. So keep posting and we'll all keep supporting one another.