You ever feel like you live in a completely different world than most people??? Sometimes it sucks and sometimes it is not a bad thing. I go through such s**t for nuthing sometimes, but I don't think I would trade it for those blissful lucid manic states/moments... It feels like if I weren't scattered so much I could focus, harness my energy/thoughts/ etc. and be really creative, really contribute to this world. I have Pyshc class today and my friend is giving a presentation on Bp and creativity/genious. I haven't read her thesis or any part of it really. but apparently there are a lot of really creative/genuis people who all "suffered" from Bp.

We should all live in a colony together where we can understand one anothers ups and downs, and take advantage of our ups/ adjust for our downs, and not be forced to fit into everyone else's world. I could never fit into the mold everyone else wanted. Constriction is the worst. I remember being a kid and I would almost delight in the effort it took to manilpulate the school system to get out of and around things that everyone else just accepted.
I know I am monopolizing this forum and all for nothing (its nonsense), but I can't stop typing. It doesn't help that I am alone at work for the next two days, there are no other people here, no windows, no sense of time no one to talk to except the plant on my desk...