I called my local county mental health center, and I've decide to go another route. The supposed counciler was very dissmisive, "everyone but Tony Robbins could have a better state of mind". i need someone patient enough for me to take my time and search out the exact words needed to describe myself. This is going to be very touch and go for awhile. I find it very hard to get comfortable enough to discuss the weather with people that I don't know, let alone my feelings. I am going to get my medical report from 1993 today cant wait to read what my doctors at the time thought of me.