i'm not ready to even consider having a relationship right now.

but i met this guy last night (friend's-friend's-friend) and we got along really well and just talked quite a lot (in a group). and this morning he got his friend's mobile & called my friend to ask for my number.

so i said yeah, cause he seemed nice and (thankfully) he's also my age (what's with older guys cracking on to me all the time?!) and i thought maybe i shouldn't just keep saying no to everyone out of fear. with other ppl who've asked me out in the past, they've either been too old, or too young (and i feel really sad for them when they're younger - because they should be hanging around kids their own age!), or i just haven't liked them. but i don't have any reason to say no to this guy other than that i'm really scared, and i'm going to throw up just thinking about this.

i dont know what to do. my last (and only) relationship was with a girl, about 3 years ago. since then, i've gone on maybe 2 or 3 'dates', but with people i had no interest in anyway - just went because i couldn't say no, tried to convince myself they just wanted to be friends etc.

i just... don't know what to do. i do want this (a bit), but... .