...so I just thought I'd post here and if need be, it can be moved. I put a trigger just cause I'm not sure how some people might interpret this.

Last night I was at a party, and needless to say, I got wasted. I was there with a bunch of friends who I love and trust, and we had a blast. I passed out in the early morning on a spare bed - alone. When I woke up, someone was running there hand along my uh, lower stomach I guess you could say. About as low as you could go, without getting TOO fresh but still knowing what you're going after. Anyway. I was in this half sleep half awake phase so I was just seriously confused. It didn't even register what was going on really. It did, but it didn't, you know? I just knew I wanted it to stop, so I rolled down to the floor. Well, the spare bed is on the floor too, so he just rolled over and put his hands back on me. I rolled over on my side, and then it stopped. I think I was still drunk when I woke up. Anyway, after that, I get up and use the bathroom. I come back and sleep back down on the spare bed (there was nowhere else to sleep), and nothing happened after that.

Thing is, here I am a few hours later, not drunk anymore, and feeling really really weird about it. I know it wasn't anything big and it isn't a big deal but I shudder when I think about it because I'm not sure what happened. At first I thought maybe he's just drunk and doesn't know what's going on. Then I thought maybe he's just sleeping and this is a habit for him with someone else. The guy, by the way, is one of my really good friends who I've known for years. But then, when I had gotten up to go to the bathroom, I saw my pants were untied (I was wearing sweatpants). I am POSITIVE that I had them tied the whole night, and tied when I went to sleep.

So that begs the questions if what happened was intentional or not - since he clearly had to have known what he was doing if he untied my pants. This guy is like a big brother to me, I always tell him he's like brother to me, and he says I'm like his little sister. I don't get this. Like I said, again, I KNOW this isn't really a big deal, I know nothing crazy could have happened because uh, well, that time of the month wouldn't allow it. But still. How long was he doing that before I woke up? What else could he have done? I've been in a situation like this before, a long time ago, and ever since that situation I had been extremely careful what I did and who I hung out with while partying. Well, this is one of my best friends. Wtf? Did he really not know what he was doing? I'm just confused.

Gah, I know I sound ridiculous but its all just really, really weird. Thanks for reading...