jeNeTeConnaisPas
I once had a huge bar code take over my computer screen - some joke, huh! Things seem to be stable on that front for the last while. I read once that we can give our T's headaches - I wonder if that's from our "vibes" or just because EVERYTHING is also so intense with us! I'm trying to make light of this, but honestly, it isn't easy to accept that you have such an effect onn people just by being in a room with them. On the other hand, I've had people be smiling away at me and yet know that they are dark inside - I mean that they are covering up some deep hurt, hiding it from others. Sometimes, I just know when someone is really just not having very nice thoughts about me and it usually comes from not understanding that i cannot help who I am. Some people are so easy-going, light-hearted - i don't know whether or not to envy them or shrug them off as shallow. What I truly wish is that I didn't think about this stuff so much. I believe it's part of the hypervigilance, just trying to make sense of a world that's incomprehensible.
Thanks for your reply; appreciated.