Sky,
I am sorry if I offended you in any way. That was not my intention in posting what I did. Those are thoughts that I have and I can't just snap them out of my head. It's a process and I am going to go through that process. Sure maybe I shouldn't be feeling guilty or second guessing but its there, and right now I can't change that reality.
I hope in the future that changes. I'm sure it will. I am also sure that most people would have wanted just one more day. Especially when the loss was so unexpected.