Thank you SO MUCH Davidandchris--you are incredibly kind to reach out to me like that.

Lately I've been doing a bit better. I ended up confessing to a girl I've been attracted to for quite some time that I really, REALLY liked her (she herself is bisexual) but was upset because I knew she was in love with someone else. She said, among other things, "Well, I could always have sex with you, see if you enjoy it," and basically said if I wanted to experiment, she'd be willing.

In about eight seconds, all attraction went *POOF*. I realized that I wasn't able to see her as more than just a really pretty girl if I knew she couldn't be exclusive to me, or at least attempt to be so, and that our values were so obviously different when it came to relationships that it'd never work out. I lost respect for her when she said that, and when that vanished, so did most of my attraction to her.

That was kind of what I'd been waiting for, weirdly... something to tell me that I don't just see other women as "sexy," but might want something long-term with another woman. Now I feel like... yeah. I could see that happening. If it does, it does, if it doesn't, it doesn't.

Thank you all for your help and advice. It's been so helpful to know that there are people here who I can reach out to if I need them (and I'll probably end up doing just that again, hehe).