Yes, MJ, you are angry. I'm glad that you were able to express it. I know that it was tough to do so... especially for so many of the things you are angry about. ((((MJ)))) IMO being able to identify your anger will help you work on it and release it.

But I have another thought, also, for you.... part of what you consider change here, might not be here, but with you. You are working on yourself, you are broadening your focus and able to encompass more and more members and issues and the site in general... and because you are progressing, perhaps now you see things differently and are even better able to lead others on a better path?

I'm not sure all of what you said is true. I do believe that you said it in a truthful manner, and that you believe it.

IMO the anger you have, you have had for a long time (thus the knot in your stomach everytime you came.) You weren't able to express it, so you turned it against yourself, I'm thinking. Now you can release it healthily, and you will feel better. That makes me glad, because you have always been a member that I respect for the journey you are on, and how you are doing.

(((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))) Sky (bDark)