Thanks Chaotic,
I have never thought of doing that. I could be more honest then, because she's not sitting right there in front of me. Then I could get her to say some of the things I need to hear without having all the nerves involved in sharing it in the presence of my T.

I may have to give that a try...

Maybe I shouldn't put this here but sometimes, I don't want to be here. I have no intention of doing anything to myself. But sometimes I find myself wishing something would happen so that I don't have to do this anymore.