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Apr 26, 2009, 01:54 AM
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Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: So Cal
Posts: 3,342
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Okay...so I wasn't sure which forum to place this in, so I decided to go with this one.
So, I have depression, complex-PTSD, and DID with some borderline traits. I've had these things for a long time, and will most likely be living with them and recovering from them for a long time as well. With all this, I am looking at returning to school to get my Master's in Social Work, and I haven't even started yet.
K...get on with it....
I'm 32. I am single. I WANT to have a baby!!! I have wanted nothing more in my life than to be a Mother. I want to be a Mother more than I want to be a wife. I want to raise a child and help them learn all the good things in this world and protect them from all the bad, awful things I have had to experience. I want baby drool on my shoulder...poopy diapers in my trash can...a crib in my second bedroom with a Classic Winnie the Pooh theme, and a little babe that I can sing to sleep. A little person that I can watch sleep and make all those cute little sleeping baby faces.
I realize that having a baby is DIFFICULT and that it is not all sunshine and roses. Kids get sick...they throw tantrums...they cry...they require more than your full attention on any given day. Sometimes I think, if I only had a little someone that needed me to climb out of my own head and focus on them, I would be less depressed, less anxious, etc.
I want a child for all the right reasons!! But, with my issues...is it even realistic? Can I really do that to a child? I know that you can't bring a child into the world just to make yourself feel better...that's selfish, and part of raising a child is to be selfless, although one does need to take care of themselves at the same time.
Oy....I'm just rambling. I have all these Mommy emotions inside of me right now and I feel like I'm running out of time!!! 
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