I guess I have to hang on in there, it's just when you first seek out help it doesn't come to you that quickly. My refurel* can't speel that word has been sent to a number of people decided who's the person best to help me get happier in life again. One thing is I did something stupid a couple of days back ago it was a very big risk if I didn't stop. Which lucky I didn't over do it. Still I don't know why I did it in the first place. Which Is worrying to me and others. It just felt like I needed to at the time. I don't think I'm totally need help but I'm despit for someone to point me in the right direction! I agree its kind of a fog but somehow you can't see if there is an "way out" of it. Still the problem is I don't ever think of the positives in life and stuff. I can't believe three years I've been like this and still cope with everything. Have you ever tried to convince yourself that your really ok, when your not and don't think your never will be?