I remember how you told us about how scared you were of giving the speech and how well it went - how great you felt afterwards - thats not being a victim thats being a survivior and trying to help others

I hope you do see your T to work this out - i dont think she meant to hurt you - T's are human - they make mistakes - a pdoc I saw told me I was powerless and that triggered me - my T told me that the pdoc said that because they didnt know me well enough to know it would trigger me - maybe your T didnt realise it would hurt you so much - maybe she was just raiising it to see how you felt about it -maybe now she knows she will be better able to help you - dont know if you tend to come across better than you are - I know I do - maybe that is part of prob - anyway I hope you do the speech I know you will be wonderful