It must be such a painful and confusing feeling. It's great that you feel comfortable enough to talk to your T about your feelings. I've heard that it can be useful in therapy, although I know I would not want to feel that way towards my T. I get twinges every now and then....and I avoid it like the avian flu....and I don't think I'd EVER be so brave as to talk to him about it. You are soooooo brave....