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I'm glad that you've settled on a new T...she sounds like she will be wonderful for you for so many reasons.

I was really struck by your last paragraph about asking for and getting what you need. This was by far the most uncomfortable thing for me to learn in therapy. Until T, I honestly never had my needs met - I didn't even know I *had* needs, seriously. I have learned, slowly, with T that I DO have needs, needs are okay, and if I ask to have my needs met, they WILL be met. It used to make me so uncomfortable that I would CRY. But the amazing and wonderful thing is that I'm getting used to it, and I am admitting to the people in my real life that I have needs...like my H..and those needs are being met for the first time in my life. It is OKAY to need things.

My T almost never says no to me (because I am the World's Most Spoiled Client! lol) and in fact, when I ask for things, he often says, "that's EASY". These things that I thought were a HUGE deal are not a huge deal at all. Learning that has been a great gift.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((searching))))))))))))))))))))) I know this is all scary, and painful, but you are doing such a great job. Hang in there, and let your new T help you...