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Take care of yourself. I care and I don't want you to get hurt over-medicating. I've done it with sleeping pills -- anything to become unconscious, anything to not have to think or feel. I know how tempting it can be, but try not to do it. It's dangerous and could lead to problems like addiction. It's good you're forcing yourself to do things even if you don't want to. If you can't get rid of that empty feeling, try to distract yourself from it for a little while.