what if, what if i can not let go of the past? what if one day i woke up and realized that i made a mistake. To make it worse, i thought my husband deleted everything of him. He did not. I was looking in my Sent messages and found threads between me and him linked in there. I guess he only got to my inbox. But this message hit me a lot. One he sent to me after i broke up with him, i was so stupid and naive and thought i could do whatever i want. I hurt this man and he literally was the best thing that happened to me. He had sent me a letter stating that No matter what he will always love me and will never forget the memories we had and the way i made him smile and melt when i walked into a room. The way that no matter how bad his day was i made it the best. That as hard and painful it is to let me go he will do it because it makes me happy doesnt matter how much it hurts him. Things keep hitting me, about this relationship. It wasnt over, i forced it to be over because i was angry with him. Now i have no closure at all... The place we met, A local rite aid we worked there together, was now closed down yesterday for good. That memory is gone, i dated him for 2 years.. I used to come in and pretend i was shoppping and go to visit him and he would always come and talk to me, the latest time was only 2 weeks ago. My husband knows nothing of me going to that store. Im not allowed. but i go when hes working, or i used to . I could tell he still cares for me, i saw it in his eyes, he came over to me and couldnt stop staring at me and kept giving that nod look like " this sucks". I love my husband but i should not have married him when my feelings were like this. I do not know what to do!