Hangingon
Sometimes I think it is ironic that the one person we should be able to trust and depend on is the one who we are so worried about losing. I feel the same as you. I am scared if I tell my T how I really feel that I will be judged and rejected. I think that it is probab;y because the people we trusted growing up are the ones who judged and rejected us, at least that is true in my life. My goal this week in therapy will be to be honest about my fear that I will be rejected and judged by my T. It almost makes me sick to my stomach to think about this, but I know it has to be done because if I am don't than I am just sabatoging my own future. I would guess my T already is a aware of my fear. Honestly I don't think my "gee I am fine" attitude fools my T. My T is just patient and is waiting for me to be ready. I think if I was my T I would want to just shake me and scream enough already I am not going any where! Maybe thats what needs to happen. Good luck this week!