Kathyanita, you make me think. That is a good thing. You make me go to the places inside that know where you are so I can beter understand. You are as honest as anyone I have ever met and you are direct. You do a great job trying to communicate what is inside. That is a brave thing to do. Some of us post details and not feelings. I think that you do a fine job reaching out here and I for one appreciate when you understand something FOR me. Language, yes, I know that barrier. Over the years I have learned the use of different words and to say them outloud. Used to send me running from the room. Words are big things to wrap one's brain around. It is a big deal to live consciously.