Treehouse,

I am completely dissociated...when I think "what are we talking about in T these days? what do I need to talk about?" my mind is pretty much blank. I know the general topic, but I won't let myself think any farther than that.

It sounds like your mind is trying to manage some pretty disturbing feelings/experiences and is literally shutting down as a way to contain things between sessions. I know that when I'm working on some pretty tough issues, in order not to become too overwhelmed, my mind kind of shuts down and I operate with a sort of numbness. Do you think that's what is happening? 90 minutes of intense work is a lot. Do you need to take more time before and after the intense work to do grounding and relaxation? My t and I have had to continually go back to that because it doesn't take much for my nervous system to go on overload.

Hope your session goes well!