I could be wrong, but it sounds to me like she triggered a couple of major things for you. One, by telling you that she felt you were in the final stages of healing, she may have sparked your abandonment fears, making you feel as though she was going to send you out on your own before you truly were healed and ready to terminate.
Secondly, her statement that she believed you were close to being healed struck you as a contradiction from what you knew about yourself. Maybe you were hurt because your t didn't realize that your capability to present yourself as such a strong, confident public speaker is part of the defenses you've built up as a child.
So many of us who have endured trauma have a high functioning fascade/exterior that we've developed to help us "do life." Perhaps after several months of therapy, you expected/wanted your t to know to know the difference between your "I'm OK, strong, confident" defense and how the real you feels inside. To hear her say what she did may have made you feel like, "Wow! Do you even know me at all???"
My suggestion is that you consider talking this through with your t before you decide whether or not to quit. It's very likely that her intention in telling you that you're well on your way to being healed was meant as a compliment and testament to your courage and hard work. I'm sure she didn't mean to upset you. But I think it's important that you let your t know how her comment affected you.
What was it about the compliment that caused you so much fear, pain, or anger that you are ready to quit therapy? Was it any of the things I mentioned above, or what others have suggested? The fact that you reacted so strongly makes me think there's an important issue here that you should not run from.
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