I can see how asking for a hug when you want/need one would be awkward. It seems like what you are asking for is not just a hug but a genuine show of caring. I am not a person who realize when getting physical support would be beneficial. Some of the most profoundly healing hugs I've received...I didn't even realize I needed them, people just...reached out and hugged me. I have however also experienced some major confusion and anxiety when individuals have hug me...and I really didn't want or expect them to enter my personal space. So from this perspective I can also see my T and others often have no touch policies---above all do no harm.

All I can say is that maybe you have to accept that your T is not going to provide this type of physical support. She has told you that it is NOT because you are considered damaged and untouchable. Those thoughts are coming from your abuse parasite--don't listen to them. Just accept what she has told you-- she will provide physical support as needed when you request it.

Maybe you could try expanding how you view "being supported" to things that she does naturally. I my case my T does not say that she "cares" for me, she does not touch me, she also does not attempt to read my mind and figure out what I need (I really wanted her to do this for a long-time). However, at one point I sat down and wrote an "evidence of caring" list to help me challange my assumption that my T was just doing her job and really didn't care about me. I generated this for a few months. It sounds dumb that I couldn't get myself to believe that she really cared, but what can I say. Having the list really helped me between sessions, when the mental noise started distorting our interactions. I would open the list and read it over and over. Maybe you could do the same thing to help yourself recognize all the other things your T does that shows she cares. When I wrote out my list, there was an abundance of evidence that clearly demonstrated that she was not just going through the motions of a job.