Are you doing any kind of talk therapy? That might help access what is really going on and what is really bothering you.
I've been on meds for years, and don't know if I'll ever be off. Sometimes I hate the thought of that, but when I think of that darkness that was over me just a few weeks back I feel like that might not be such a bad thing. I have a chemical imbalance for sure, and am trying to get my stuff together, yet again.
I am glad you are feeling better. I think you should seek either talk therapy or even keep a journal and start writing what bothers you and why. Maybe by doing this it can help you pinpoint what is going on.