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beadlady29-old · Apr 27, 2009, 11:28 PM

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my sweet freind how wonderful and comforting it is to hear from you........
beads has missed ya.............
we are learning to speak up about stuff gooder...one small step at a time...
it is soooooooo hard for bead to share even with freinds here but we IS trying cuz we knows we needs to.........it seems like it gets harder every day to walk this path,,,,,like were thinking iffen wed a knowed how difficult therapy would be before we started we never would of but now were in the midst of it and cant go back to where we were,,,,,,,,,but still so very far from where we want to be .......
we is as agitated as the wind outside cuz....no surprise here ....we see T tomorrow and were already nervous about what ing. in the pot he will stir up this time........like he dont seem to get that it is taking us more and more DAYS to recover from the time before in between sessions and then we just start feeling human again and BAMit is time to start all over again.............dunnow how much more of this bead can take before she cracks up For Real For Good...........were getting to ( what you mean getting)
that point in therapy where we have to go where we doesn't want to go and soooooooo scared..........our avoidance skills are sticking out like a sore thumb but they aren't even working rite not like they used to we are all coming apart at the seams
bead
(not getting enuf beadwork done to do motorcycle show cuz we is so screwed up and that DOES NOT help matters)