(((((TreeHouse)))))

I think I understand. I have a hard time talking directly about my relationship with T because he will say such wonderful things to me. Their positivity overwhelms me and I feel I will explode. And it is so hard to just sit there and take it! I feel like I must be squirming and look like I'm ready to bolt. But yet I love it too. It's the craziest feeling. It's like he is giving me his warmth, but to me, all that goodness can feel scorching. I literally sit there and will myself to keep from exploding. T is pretty good now at coming in obliquely with the "wonderful" stuff. I can only handle so much. I take a lot of positive from the joy and warmth of our interactions without having to directly comment on how great our relationship is and how we feel about each other, etc. I mean, c'mon, this isn't a torture chamber!

I don't understand why this is so hard. Maybe we are partly conditioned to be modest and not accept good things people say about us. I don't know.

Hang in there, girl. I hope you go Thursday.