Yes, THIS! I WANT him to say "you disgust me" or "i wish you would just leave me alone" or "I can't stand another minute of this" - but it's all love, love, love, accept, accept, accept.

I don't know why I hate it, but I do.

And on the other hand, I know I would totally freak and be upset if he DID say "you disgust me" or whatever....but at least it would make SENSE. I can't put this therapy relationship in any kind of context that makes sense to me, and it hurts.