I admin on another forum, for self injurers and I just found out that one of the other admins died last night of multiple organ failure. We'd been working together for about 5 years but had known each other for 7. It's just so f-ing unfair. She was smart, funny, caring, and supportive to me when I was going through tough times. She'd been in the hospital about a month and I kept hoping she'd get better. I found out when I got to work this morning and checked my e-mail. I just want to ball my eyes out, but I'm still partly too numb plus I'm at work. This makes me really want to drink or cut, but I'm not going to do either because she wouldn't want me to. I'm so going to miss her.

---splitimage