Wow, I just had a lightning bulb moment. Maybe I enjoyed meth so much because it treated my ADD (to a point) - I was actually able to clean the house without getting distracted or overwhelmed. I was actually able to concentrate on one thing at a time rather than a million. While meth usually sends people into crazy spirals, it calmed me a little and let me breathe. Of course, I know that is not the answer but its an interesting correlation. What do you think?