(((((((((Beads)))))))))),

I hope your therapist appointment goes ok today.....I know what you mean about him stirring up your pot.......& will all that has been happening to you just daily to deal with.....where is the time to deal with the underlying big issues that are there to handle. There are times when it feels that just daily life is more than we can handle.....don't throw anything more to have to deal with.

Praying that your daily NOW life will slow down a bit so you can breath & have some quality time to deal with what is going on inside.

Definitely know that you are NOT stupid.....no where close....you are wise & able to survive things thrown at you.....couldn't possibly be stupid & get through the things you have been able to handle.

Your statement about not being able to handle things the first time around isn't quite accurate. You handled things very well the first time around....your mind took over & did what it needed to do to survive......sometimes when life comes down to the survival level....the mind takes over & handles things for us in the the best way possible to handle what we are going through.....don't doubt that was the best way & probably the only way to handle things that first time around. Sorting out what the mind did that first time around is the tough part, so you can understand yourself NOW better.

You have to believe that only a strong person could have gotten through what you have then, & NOW.....

You are a wonderful person.....a very special person.....don't listen to any part of yourself that tells you differently because it's completely wrong.........you will get through all the now junk in your life & be able to breath.....then you can deal with the issues deep inside without worring about adding more bad into the now.

Allow your therapist to prioritize what you need to deal with.....hopefully your therapist has your best interest as his priority.....

Caring about you,
Debbie