Well I've tried not to think of him but its not working. My problem is I want these feelings to go away now. I'm in so much pain and I just want it to stop. It has only been a couple of days. I can only seem to stop thinking about him a couple minutes a day and I spend all day crying. It doesn't matter where I am the grocery store the doctors office. I just start bawling. I don't know how much more of this I can take. I tried to go to that meetup site but everything there that was interesting to me required money and I don't have any. The ones that didn't ask for money was way too far from where I live meaning I would have to spend money to get there.