What is the use of "90 meetings 90 days" if the people in AA don't even care enough to have someone else come in and have a meeting. I sat out front the church for an hour and a half. It has gotten cold and it was raining. I have a really bad cut on my finger. Plus to top it all off I was in shorts and a t-shirt! I am really starting to wonder. Everyone says that you have more fun clean and sober, but I am wondering were that fun is. I don't like taking my pills........ALL 9 OF THEM!!!!!! I really don't like talking to my pdoc OR my therapist. I can't stand the nightmares everynight. I hate being away from my kids "so I can get better". What am I supposed to do?? I am starting to wonder if the right "medicaation" would be is a line of coke or a 12 pk. of Bud Light. I sure felt better when they were my "friends". I wonder where my support group is. Oh yea! I forgot. They are trying to put me in a hospital and plotting a way to deem me unfit so they can put me in a hospital. I am almost to the point where I throw up my hand and tell everyone " %#@&#! YOU AND GO TO HELL".