I ahve no clue what is going on with me. It's like after I lost the baby that I have not been eating. I was anorexic as a kid and after my daughter was born I overate, I gained a lot of weight. I was about 400 pounds (maybe a little less) and I went down to 135 in a matter of a year and a half. My boyfriend made me gain weight (very abusive relationship) I got up to about 200 pounds and then in 4 months I am about 180 pounds. I look in the mirror and see this really fat *** blob monster. I don't eat and I just drink flavored water. I also think that my family is trying to poison me. I need help. I have no clue what is going on anymore.