Hello all, I have found in the past that depression and envy go hand in hand. Right now I am going through a depressive phase, I think my medication needs to be changed. In the meantime however, I am extremely envious of my psychologist. She is young, slim, attractive, intelligent and makes a lot more than I do, I bet. She's also nicer, more mature, friendlier, funnier, etc. I am 26 at the moment and I have always taken the easy road through life. I work as a data entry person cos I can type. But I would like to make decisions about my career. To decide upon a path and walk it. Rather than just taking the path of least resistance. That's what i've done in the past, just drifting aimlessly, no ambition, hope, etc. I think that may have been cos i've had depression all my life, if that's even possible. But now i've been on zoloft and it's worked well up until now. I often think of my psychologist when i am feeling lonely and pathetic. I wonder what kind of company she keeps. Does she have a boyfriend? I'm sure he's nothing like me, he's probably a doctor too, and a millionaire. I should probably stop seeing her since she's making me feel so depressed, but that would make me very sad to have her out of my life. I would be thinking about her all the time. I have Social Phobia so I have no friends of my own. Any advice? I feel very bad about myself at the moment and I am having all my old thoughts. I don't know. Once I got a crush on a girl who i hadn't even seen for 7 years. I just remembered her and wished I could be in her life etc. I was crying on the floor in my kitchen and stuff like that. I don't know.