i believe that it's always easier to want what someone else has..rather than get it on our own. she may have an totally boring life. and she probably does make more than you...if you don't have a college degree and a career. now that we've covered that, what are you willing to do to better your station in life? is it possible for you go to college? get a degree? do you have a job? sounds like your med is working.. i encourage you to check into some college course and not feel so bad about what you don't have. throw your energies into getting more.......pat p.s. you didn't know this was 20 questions, did you?