Thanks Junerain! Oh, right....journaling about the illness....I can now see how writing about that might help!
Part of the problem is that I need to learn HOW to let it out at the right person at the right time. I don't like doing that because I like to take the time to think about the right way of saying something so that it doesn't come out wrong. Part of the problem with that is that it can take me forever to figure it out! If I try to react in the moment, I tend to let my anger out in the wrong way, saying things that are hurtful or will get me into trouble later. That is why I don't do it anymore.

Thank you so much for the thought. I might just have to really think about what I hold on to and what I can let go of. I hold on to ALOT that really should just be let go. For example, my husband put seasoning on my oven fries when he knows I have a stomach issue. He didn't do it just to spite me, he just didn't realize it had onion powder in it. That made me angry because at the time I felt like he was just doing it to upset me, but he is so kind and sweet, that he honestly didn't know.

So, see.....that is my problem. I need to learn to pick my battles appropriately and deal with the appropriately.

Hey, look, writing did a little good for today! I figured something out!