I, after many many years of srug and alcohol abuse and addiction, have finally found something that is working for me now. As all of you know, this is an ongoing process of trying different things in order to stay clean.. I have now been clean and sober for 4 years. never thought that would happen but I did it one day at a time. I try and use what I have been through to try and help others. Like they say, "you have to give it away to keep it." In another mental health site and one before that I was a moderator of addiction forum because of the help the administration could see that I was giving to others. It IS a give and take place though. I also recieve new things from what people post. I first started out with alcohol when I was 13, my last drug of choice was herion. Herion was REALLY hard to kick. I did it on my own though, going through all the withdrawls and other side affects on my own. When I had told my Doctor about this after it was over she told me that was a BIG mistake because I could have died from going through all of that. But I learned alot going through that and I use everything I have been through to try and help others. I said I started when I was 13, I am now 47, so this gives you an idea of all the different and harder drugs I went through that stopped working and had to find a new one that would give me what I wanted. Well, guess this gives you a little about what I have been through and where I am at now. Today is all I have because I do not know what tomorrow brings. I wish the best for all of you and want you all to know, I have been there, gone through that and know what it is like.

Allan