Well I havent been able to post back..........I will about my feelings but I have to go away for work.
In a nutshell the weekend was okay. talked a little bit but she wasnt able to even begin to apologize or ease any concern.
I'm going away and Im sure she will be right back in a bar room while I am gone. Right now her current problem with that, sounds like she doesnt have the money to go.....Im sure not offering to give her money for it. Her and her drinking buddy are broke.......but I would bet money that one of the two of them will figure out that if they just go with a couple of bucks.......talk it up with some guys then they wont need money anyway because the guys will buy them drinks.....who need money right? And they surely wont be lonely for male companionship.
if Im lucky I will I wont make it back and have to deal with it.
Solves the whole mess.
For what it is worth...I do think she loves me..........it is that she just gets lonely.........and I cant be there on the days she wants to not be lonely.........so thats pretty much it.

Thank you all for your thoughts and advice.....it has helped me.....it really has.
I will post more when I return from the sand dunes!