i don't know if i'm even posting this in the right section but i feel kind of desperate. it's like, when i get angry, i have no control over myself. i feel like im a stranger watching myself get so amazingly angry over nothing and theres nothing i can do about it.

it feels like there is a logical half of my brain and a crazy half and the logical half, i can hear it in there screaming "no! don't say that!" but then the crazy half beats up the logical half and i say it anyways and just escalate the situation.

its extremely frustrating and a little scary and i feel helpless. I have no idea where this came from or how to fix it. I just hate myself so much after I have one of these episodes. I feel like I am incapable of having a healthy, long-lasting relationship. Has anyone else ever felt like this? I just don't know what to do anymore. Not being able to control what i do and say when I get angry is making me feel worthless and like a totally horrible person.