No problem m'dear. You talk about only feeling fear and anger and yet you were touched to tears. That's another feeling you had. i replied to that specifically because i often think the same way. i often believe i don't feel...that a primary reason i've been in this perpetual mess is that i haven't felt what i went through when i was too busy surviving. i'm always in my head. Yet almost every time i go to therapy i tear up. i think both are probably true. i do feel but i have so much more to feel yet. i have seen improvements over the years yet am still mired in this stuff to where it seems there is nothing else.

The thing i (lovingly) want you to see here though...you're not just a being full of fear and anger. You are much more.