So my husband is leaving for weekend to Ohio and we live in VA and it is killing me! I am so scared to be alone especially at night and I dont know how to deal with it! I have been mad to pissed off to down right hating him for leaving...hating his mother for planning the trip all I want to do is scream and cry and I cant stop crying and I cant stop thinking about how long the nights will be while I am sitting awake scared to death because he is gone. What am I supposed to do?! How am I supposed to get thru the weekend without breaking down? All I can think about is something bad is going to happen and he wont be here to protect me. All I can think about is the horrible thing that did happen to me and that when it did happen he was in Ohio! I wish I could just make it all go away...the thoughts, the triggers, the nightmares, the scary thoughts, the fear. When I tried to talk about it and tell him why I feel the way I do I dont think he understands or cares because he is still going! I feel alone and I dont know what to do.