PM'd you w/regards to above. Best wishes and strength. Yes, you have it in you but sometimes we can't access all that we are all the time. Please remember, you do what you can when you can and that's all any of us can do. You're A-OK as you are. Please also try to be as nice to yourself as you are to us. i do get it cuz i think and say one thing but may act differently toward myself.