So many people have told me to go to hospital, said I need medical attention aswell as some Mental Health help and that maybe it's best if I get sectioned, or just admitted to a psych ward.

I almost went to hospital and still am tempted to go, but I'm too scraed... It means Connor will find out and go mad and stuff and his parents will find out and go mad and I don't want to put that stress on Connor. He's got enough on his plate as it is... I don't know. If I don't feel any better tomorrow, I'll go to hospital or the drs and get checked over.